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melodiesofeternity2018-10-13 10:02 pm
peninhand) wrote in melodiesofeternity2018-10-13 10:02 pm
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What is love?
Who: Monika, anyone
When: October 09th-13th
Where: Curti Center, Nakagawa
What: Catch-all for Monika, who is back after having secluded herself in the Arito library and its book for a month.
Warnings/Notes:
A | Back to the Center (Curti Center, October 11th)
For over a month, Monika had pretty much lived in the library of Arito, so no one could see her and so she would have enough books to distract herself, in an attempt to not lose herself entirely to the sadness. She had completely ignored Mognet, the Custom Jobs and that whole Bahamut business. Why, she had even ignored her own birthday. And the idea of that dreadful eidolon killing her didn't sound that bad... But her temporary retreat had worked, to an extent. She felt much better, even if the sorrow still lingered under her facade. When Monika arrived and left the airship hangar, she didn't look any different from the way she had been before her departure.
Her Moogle did look quite different, however. Exhausted and desperate. Perhaps she just wasn't as good as Monika when it came to internalizing her feelings. Ah well. Regardless, Monika was all smile and soon went on her merry way to settle some things before going back to her house. She would greet everyone on her way with a "good evening" or with a smile, feel free to reply to her!
B | A Place to Call Home (House B-10, October 12th)
Monika had been supposed to relinquish her housing, but with the change of rule... She wasn't too sure.
As she stepped in, the first time in over a month, she took a look around. Ena had already left, hadn't she...? She wondered if they had already found a replacement for her... Not that it mattered. This place felt so empty and dead now. As if someone had ripped its heart out. What had once been a comforting and warm place now felt just sorrowful and painful.
She waved for her Moogle to leave and threw herself onto the sofa, grabbing a pillow and juggling it in the air absentmindedly. Well, if there was no one at least she didn't have to remain all well-mannered and could relax without a care in the world. Small comfort.
C | Unnatural Disaster (Island of the Curti Center, October 14th)
Ghoul Powder. That was probably the most distasteful skill available to Necromancers. But it opened many doors! If Necromancers could concoct potions that turned living being into monsters, surely they could make potions that affected them in far less drastic ways...? Like affecting the chemical balance of the brain to change one's emotion. Changing sadness into happiness, fear into joy, or perhaps even inducing love where none exists... A Chemist would be far more apt to making non-destructive potions, but she didn't have the asterisk. Not like she would use it anyway. Forcing someone to love you through the use of some potion? That was wrong on so many level...
... Though she was curious if it could work at the very least. Hence why she was on her own outside of the Curti Center, where hopefully no one could see her. There was a Geezard at her feet, one she had captured. It was the best kind of test subject she had thought of. She couldn't test her concoction onto an animal, let alone a person, and much as Papyrus would argue otherwise, those monsters had no soul or character to them. No one would miss the thing.
Hence she grabbed a vial filled with a black thick liquid before pouring it onto the captured creature. At first nothing happened but soon... The Geezard stopped moving altogether. Its body grew black and started smelling like rotten meat. It was dead.
"Oh..." Monika was expressionless as she looked at the now dead monster, though she sounded a tad surprised. "Oh."
Well. That hadn't turned the Geezard into an unstoppable demon, that was.... Progress? She sighed, why was she even pursuing such endeavors?
C | Friendly Visit (Nakagawa, October 10th, Locked to Dylas)
Before going back to the Curti Center, Monika had wanted to see Dylas. She hadn't seen him in quite a while nor had she heard anything about him. Nothing surprising given she hadn't paid attention to Mognet, but she couldn't help and worry a bit. Hence why she stopped by Nakagawa and headed for his house.
"Anyone here?"
She stopped by the door and knocked on it, was that the place...? She'd never come here before, but she knew he was supposed to be living with Yue.
D | Drown your Sorrows in Ice Cream (Curti Center, October 13th, Locked to Okuyasu)
In spite of putting up a strong facade, there was only so much one could internalize before needing something to drown it all. So far, it had been books, but there weren't really any that interested her here... Perhaps she shouldn't have come back and should have placed a job request to work at the library. That was a good idea, actually.
But in the meantime, she had found something to help her: Ice Cream.
So much ice cream actually, there were enough empty cup around her, one could think an entire Blitzball team had been there. And yet she was the only one there, slowly but steadily emptying the Curti Center's reserves.
When: October 09th-13th
Where: Curti Center, Nakagawa
What: Catch-all for Monika, who is back after having secluded herself in the Arito library and its book for a month.
Warnings/Notes:
A | Back to the Center (Curti Center, October 11th)
For over a month, Monika had pretty much lived in the library of Arito, so no one could see her and so she would have enough books to distract herself, in an attempt to not lose herself entirely to the sadness. She had completely ignored Mognet, the Custom Jobs and that whole Bahamut business. Why, she had even ignored her own birthday. And the idea of that dreadful eidolon killing her didn't sound that bad... But her temporary retreat had worked, to an extent. She felt much better, even if the sorrow still lingered under her facade. When Monika arrived and left the airship hangar, she didn't look any different from the way she had been before her departure.
Her Moogle did look quite different, however. Exhausted and desperate. Perhaps she just wasn't as good as Monika when it came to internalizing her feelings. Ah well. Regardless, Monika was all smile and soon went on her merry way to settle some things before going back to her house. She would greet everyone on her way with a "good evening" or with a smile, feel free to reply to her!
B | A Place to Call Home (House B-10, October 12th)
Monika had been supposed to relinquish her housing, but with the change of rule... She wasn't too sure.
As she stepped in, the first time in over a month, she took a look around. Ena had already left, hadn't she...? She wondered if they had already found a replacement for her... Not that it mattered. This place felt so empty and dead now. As if someone had ripped its heart out. What had once been a comforting and warm place now felt just sorrowful and painful.
She waved for her Moogle to leave and threw herself onto the sofa, grabbing a pillow and juggling it in the air absentmindedly. Well, if there was no one at least she didn't have to remain all well-mannered and could relax without a care in the world. Small comfort.
C | Unnatural Disaster (Island of the Curti Center, October 14th)
Ghoul Powder. That was probably the most distasteful skill available to Necromancers. But it opened many doors! If Necromancers could concoct potions that turned living being into monsters, surely they could make potions that affected them in far less drastic ways...? Like affecting the chemical balance of the brain to change one's emotion. Changing sadness into happiness, fear into joy, or perhaps even inducing love where none exists... A Chemist would be far more apt to making non-destructive potions, but she didn't have the asterisk. Not like she would use it anyway. Forcing someone to love you through the use of some potion? That was wrong on so many level...
... Though she was curious if it could work at the very least. Hence why she was on her own outside of the Curti Center, where hopefully no one could see her. There was a Geezard at her feet, one she had captured. It was the best kind of test subject she had thought of. She couldn't test her concoction onto an animal, let alone a person, and much as Papyrus would argue otherwise, those monsters had no soul or character to them. No one would miss the thing.
Hence she grabbed a vial filled with a black thick liquid before pouring it onto the captured creature. At first nothing happened but soon... The Geezard stopped moving altogether. Its body grew black and started smelling like rotten meat. It was dead.
"Oh..." Monika was expressionless as she looked at the now dead monster, though she sounded a tad surprised. "Oh."
Well. That hadn't turned the Geezard into an unstoppable demon, that was.... Progress? She sighed, why was she even pursuing such endeavors?
C | Friendly Visit (Nakagawa, October 10th, Locked to Dylas)
Before going back to the Curti Center, Monika had wanted to see Dylas. She hadn't seen him in quite a while nor had she heard anything about him. Nothing surprising given she hadn't paid attention to Mognet, but she couldn't help and worry a bit. Hence why she stopped by Nakagawa and headed for his house.
"Anyone here?"
She stopped by the door and knocked on it, was that the place...? She'd never come here before, but she knew he was supposed to be living with Yue.
D | Drown your Sorrows in Ice Cream (Curti Center, October 13th, Locked to Okuyasu)
In spite of putting up a strong facade, there was only so much one could internalize before needing something to drown it all. So far, it had been books, but there weren't really any that interested her here... Perhaps she shouldn't have come back and should have placed a job request to work at the library. That was a good idea, actually.
But in the meantime, she had found something to help her: Ice Cream.
So much ice cream actually, there were enough empty cup around her, one could think an entire Blitzball team had been there. And yet she was the only one there, slowly but steadily emptying the Curti Center's reserves.
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"You can do a hell of a lot better than Ena, anyway. I bet you're not missing much." While his intent wasn't to comfort her, it did feel good to lay out his thoughts. Maybe girls who liked girls had weird tastes. Then again, those two lived together without them killing each other, so maybe they were meant for each other? Okuyasu was not the expert on romance.
"...I'd say you should get some ice cream and you'll feel better, but..."
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Had he just insulted Ena...? Not outright of course, but the way he had worded things made it sound like Ena wasn't worth his time, or hers for this matter. The urge to grab the ice cream and launch it right into his stupid face... She sighed and slowly shook her head.
"Ena is much better than either you or I."
The tone was cold, she may have been rejected but that didn't mean she suddenly hated Ena or anything. Man, did that make her a Yandere, to feel that kind of anger against someone ill-speaking about her love interest? She hoped not.
"... I think the center is going to run out of ice cream soon."
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Someone like Yukako.
Someone he really, really shouldn't mess with. If Monika wanted to scare him, she did the job. Future attempted nurderer or now, she was one chick not to fuck with.
Okuyasu took another spoonful of strawberry ice cream and forced himself to swallow. "...J-just don't eat it all, or they're not gonna let you come back."
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That said, seeing what chills he had... She was piercing the stuff together.
"Okuyasu."
He was much too dense. She needed to formulate things in a way he couldn't misunderstand things. She looked down at her spoon.
"I do not have any feelings for you." She couldn't have been more blunt. "And even if I did, I most certainly wouldn't act upon them seeing the way you treated me. Regarding the matter at hand, I think Ena is a wonderful person and I still care deeply for her, even if she doesn't. But I won't obsess over her or bring harm to people because of my feelings."
She sighed and shook her head.
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That was not the direction he expected the conversation to go. When did he say he liked her? Maybe for, like, 2 seconds when they bumped into each other. Was she looking for a rebound? He couldn't wrap his dumb brain around it.
"You thought I was flirting with you?" He looked genuinely confused.
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A rebound? What a dumb idea now.
"It's not a nice feeling, you know? Whenever I speak to you, you either start getting scared or angry. I get why now... And I guess I kinda give off those vibes, especially now that I love someone." She looked down. "Ahaha... Why am I even trying? You're just gonna get angry or insult me before leaving."
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The anime archetype was created with Yukako.Okuyasu assumed that was another term for a creepy chick. There were many things that he had to accept were too high of a concept for him to comprehend."So...you don't wanna be scary." That...was better. Even if Yukako did have those moments where she apologized to Koichi and then kidnapped him, she did eventually got better, somehow. He wasn't sure how that happened. Girls were weird.
"You think that's why Ena turned you down?" He was still cautious about approaching Monika, but if he could figure her out, he might be less scared of her.
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"No, Ena never saw or judged me the way you do."
Why would he even ask that question?
"She just... Doesn't love me..."
She put down the spoon and started crying while thinking about why she was rejected. Probably because she was unlovable at all.
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He opted to sit and wait for her to stop crying into her food while he finished his own bowl of ice cream.
It made for quite a scene.
"You feel better now?"
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"... Not really."
She shook her head and stood up.
"But thanks."
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She didn't snap back. That was a good sign. Maybe. But if she doesn't hate him or love him, then he was safe.
"You got friends, don't you? They'd know better how to cheer you up."
The first piece of actual advice he had.
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She had, but that would hardly get her to cheer up. She opted not to reply to the question and got up from her chair.
"You're not a bad person when you want. You should try being like that more often, you know?"
And with that said, she left.