[ Lelouch has wanted to tell her, honestly. He had made it clear that he would tell Euphemia everything. Anything she wanted to know. He'd keep nothing from her. Out of everyone in this place, Euphy deserves the truth. Part of the Requiem had been for her sake too. Built upon her desires and wishes of the world.
Just because she had run away from it doesn't mean that he shouldn't have pressed the issue. Lelouch should have. He knows this. Even if that truth had pushed her away from him, forced a second loss that would have been just as painful as the first, he should have told her. The reality is that he had a hard time with her death. Even now. One of two deaths, really, that had been his doing that he had felt regret over. Euphemia's had broken him. Euphemia in general had made him question everything. Bringing it up would have been like ripping open a wound that hadn't entirely healed only to watch it bleed and likely not heal again.
Now? Well now it is the same, only the that wound is festering on top of it. Lelouch doesn't stop the slap. Not that he could. He is in shock and isn't even entirely aware of Euphy's proximity until her hand connects with his face. It burns. Not with pain, but with shame. He can't even turn back to look at her or even try to explain. This is what Lelouch deserves. She should slap him more. Euphemia has the right of it. ]
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Just because she had run away from it doesn't mean that he shouldn't have pressed the issue. Lelouch should have. He knows this. Even if that truth had pushed her away from him, forced a second loss that would have been just as painful as the first, he should have told her. The reality is that he had a hard time with her death. Even now. One of two deaths, really, that had been his doing that he had felt regret over. Euphemia's had broken him. Euphemia in general had made him question everything. Bringing it up would have been like ripping open a wound that hadn't entirely healed only to watch it bleed and likely not heal again.
Now? Well now it is the same, only the that wound is festering on top of it. Lelouch doesn't stop the slap. Not that he could. He is in shock and isn't even entirely aware of Euphy's proximity until her hand connects with his face. It burns. Not with pain, but with shame. He can't even turn back to look at her or even try to explain. This is what Lelouch deserves. She should slap him more. Euphemia has the right of it. ]