[ He deserves that anger and that rage. Because as much as he had grieved, he knows that Cornelia's pain had been tenfold. He remembers how much it hurt when he had thought that Nunnally had been killed. Lelouch had shut down. Been unable to function. Cornelia? She's stronger than him. She picked herself up when he couldn't. ]

SAZ... [ Does he tell her? Would it really make a difference? Lelouch also looks away, clearly conflicted. ] It wasn't what I wanted nor what I had planned. Nothing happened as it should have that day. I should have been more aware, but...

[ Lelouch clenches his jaw. He can't look at Cornelia. The pain is still stupidly raw even though he knows he has no right to it. ]

I miscalculated. I messed up.