She laughs almost hysterically. Oh, Kanji. You're a teenager, you should know how intense interpersonal drama could get. Especially when supernatural stuff was involved. Staring at her hands, Connie chokes out, "I've screwed up so many times! First I couldn't help at the Zoo, then Steven wouldn't let me save him, and now Futaba... I just... every time I see her, it feels like all of my failures are being thrown right back in my face!"