I'm not presuming to know your feelings, Ravus. I'm reminding you that you were opposed to this in the beginning, and that you made your discomfort with me wanting both you and Ignis pretty clear. [He's not trying to be argumentative, but it probably sounds that way.]
And you already have that promise - I'll never run off like that again. No matter what.
[Those are the only words he's spoken that sound like his usual self, confident and determined, but all too quickly he slumps again. Normally Ravus basically telling him to suck it up and shove all this pain away would piss him off. Now?
Now he just realizes how much everything that's happened is effecting him.]
You think I like this? Looking and sounding so weak, especially in front of you? [Shit, those are tears starting to burn his eyes. If he looks up, there's no way Ravus will miss that pathetic sheen. But if he keeps his head down, they'll spill over...]
Physical pain's easy to shove off and ignore. This ... this isn't...[Gladio makes the mistake of looking up and clenches his jaw in embarrassment and shame when a few tears do, in fact, leak out of his eyes and burn like acid down his cheeks.]
Guess no one expects a Shield to get emotionally overwhelmed. Not even his lover.
[Well, he's definitely ruined his image enough for one night. Time to attempt an escape.]
Thanks for cleaning and bandaging everything. I'll work on stowing my shit, don't want you to be too sickened by me, but right now I just want to lie down in my room - [Fuck, that's not an option now.] I mean ... on the couch and sleep so I can pretend all this emotional and crying shit didn't even happen in front of you.
[Okay, so Ravus' words kind of hurt. Gladio's never experienced so much emotional upheaval in such a short time and Ravus is acting like he should just be able to turn off his feelings. Which maybe he should - an emotionally compromised Shield protects nothing just like a weak Shield protects nothing.
So Gladio tries to stand, intending to get to the couch and sleep until the next day.]
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And you already have that promise - I'll never run off like that again. No matter what.
[Those are the only words he's spoken that sound like his usual self, confident and determined, but all too quickly he slumps again. Normally Ravus basically telling him to suck it up and shove all this pain away would piss him off. Now?
Now he just realizes how much everything that's happened is effecting him.]
You think I like this? Looking and sounding so weak, especially in front of you? [Shit, those are tears starting to burn his eyes. If he looks up, there's no way Ravus will miss that pathetic sheen. But if he keeps his head down, they'll spill over...]
Physical pain's easy to shove off and ignore. This ... this isn't...[Gladio makes the mistake of looking up and clenches his jaw in embarrassment and shame when a few tears do, in fact, leak out of his eyes and burn like acid down his cheeks.]
Guess no one expects a Shield to get emotionally overwhelmed. Not even his lover.
[Well, he's definitely ruined his image enough for one night. Time to attempt an escape.]
Thanks for cleaning and bandaging everything. I'll work on stowing my shit, don't want you to be too sickened by me, but right now I just want to lie down in my room - [Fuck, that's not an option now.] I mean ... on the couch and sleep so I can pretend all this emotional and crying shit didn't even happen in front of you.
[Okay, so Ravus' words kind of hurt. Gladio's never experienced so much emotional upheaval in such a short time and Ravus is acting like he should just be able to turn off his feelings. Which maybe he should - an emotionally compromised Shield protects nothing just like a weak Shield protects nothing.
So Gladio tries to stand, intending to get to the couch and sleep until the next day.]